Coping

it's been a tough couple of days....firstly doing a job I didn't want to do....and admiring the people that do it every day with so much compassion like doctors and police officers....the task of telling people that a loved one has died...as school council president I had to do the job of phoning other council members, parents club, friends who knew her but hadn't been told by anyone else....not a great job...and then telling my kids....wow that was hard....Johanna was like an honorary grandma to them...to all her kids at the school and my kids were devastated....the first real person in their lives that had died...someone who had known them for ten years of their lives(or in Jenna's case her whole life...she'd known her since before she was born) so that was really hard for them...the hugs and kisses that I've shared in the last few days with people I would never have thought of hugging in the past just because we are all so sad....that someone so special could have left the world so soon....it's tough but we're coping...the poor kids at school were devastated...the older ones especially who had known her so long